PiNK!!

*ahem*

this is my girliest, most feminine handbag...ever!! it looks like a giant purse...but i love it...hehehe...may be that's the main reason why i bought the bag...apart from looking like a giant coin purse, it's a soft pinkish colour...with a pink ribbon to top...

i think i'll post more about my bags...since i have quite a number of them...like someone said to me..."mati kenak timpak beg baruk tauk"...lalalalala...

insomnia

couldn't really sleep last night...

i am currently reading something that i puchased quite recently...where the stories are very much pulp fiction themed...and somehow, my dreams last night were also pulp fictionish...i couldn't remember them exactly but the scary part is i woke up several times and whenever i went back to sleep, the dream would continue...don't you think that's scary? i ended up tossing and turning...not able to fall asleep for a couple of hours...it was nearly morning when i finally fell asleep...and then it was time to wake up...and this morning my face had this bloated look...all swollen up...muka sembab...probably no thanks to my sleepless night...

will i continue reading the stories again tonight? errrr....may be...may be not...i haven't had this kind of dream for quite some time now...i know many many years ago when i was still an undergraduate student...whenever i came back for the holidays, i would read my sister's collection of doraemon's comics...oh yes...would be reading them non-stop...until!! until one night when my dreams were full of characters from doraemon and no matter how many times i woke up and went back to sleep, the dreams would be there waiting for me...ughhh...

bulan biru

okay, now...why in the cyberspace did i rename this blog? senang je tu...aku nie sebenarnya spesis yang rasa macam banyak benda yang dia nak tulis...macam-macam idea...cuma yang kurangnya kerajinan...kerajinan tu penting...sama gak pentingnya dengan nawaitu...lagipun aku nie spesis yang berkecenderungan untuk menyimpang...bak kata kawan aku sorang nie dulu, "you like to digress"...aiseyyy...

memang pun aku nie manusia yang bila cakap tu melompat sana sini...belum abis this one particular train of thought, i would be jumping onto the next one...apa kes??

anyway, balik kepada topik asal ari nie...bulan biru...oh yes, kan orang selalu cakap, "once in a blue moon"...tu pasal la...aku buat penjenamaan semula kepada blog nie...aku cuma update sesekali je...bila aku jenguk kat luar tingkap malam-malam, dan kebetulan pulak malam tu bulan berwarna biru, then you can expect me to update this blue blog...

short-term memory loss

i think i'm suffering from short-term memory loss...on my way to work this morning, i was planning to search for something on utube...something i forgot once i reached the office...what was it? urrgghhh...i hate it when this sort of thing happen...u know that it's just at the tip of your brain but for the life of you, you just can't recall the thing...may be i need a doctor?

I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life (Eminem ft Skylar Grey)

my thoughts have been gone for so long...i'm not losing my mind but i'm losing my thoughts...do i really need a doctor? or do i simply need to find the latest technique to boost one's memory...hahaha...as if i would be caught doing that...no-no-no...

gLoomy...gLoomier...

this morning was gloomy enough as it was...

i was quite lazy in waking up (can't really blame me after the four-day holiday)...then there was something wrong with my car key...*sigh* when i reached the office...well...it wasn't too bad in the beginning...then i started to check my emails...and that's when it hit me! a gloomy day instantly got gloomier...huh...

i haven't been receiving any 'poisonous' email (that's what my friend calls it) for quite some time...and today i got one...and so, as it is, i am feeling extremely down...down..down...i hate this feeling...and i hate the person who sent me the poisonous email that has further ruined my day...

the person is asking me to be rational, not emotional...what's exactly the person's motive? when all this while the person has been very emotional...and has threatened my emotionally...

benci aaa macam nie...nie yang buat aku rasa cam nak layan lagu je...but i have to go to class at 2pm today...and i haven't finished updating my slides...dang!!

oh well...i still have a few hours left...might as well layan lagu disagree - please & scarecrow adams...sesuai sesangat dengan jiwa yang kacau...peaceeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

auto-pilot

driving on auto-pilot...mmm...uh huh...might have heard that before...living on auto-pilot? mmmm...mmmm....might have and might not have...

for those who are constantly going through life dazed and numb, it is akin to living on auto-pilot...it's like you are just going through the motions...without thinking...well...you know how sometimes when you drive along a familiar route? sometimes you amazed yourself on being able to get from one point to another by going through automatic motions...this is especially so when you are thinking about something (or day dreaming, uh huh)...one moment you are at this place and the next...walla!!

i have been living my life on auto-pilot for quite some time...till one day..it hit me...yup!~ smacked across my forehead... (well...my heart would be more probably like it) and i realized that i haven't been living the life i wanted to...all those while i was living to please those people around me...duhhh!~~

and so...began my horrifying, terrifying journey through the fog (errr...)...kinda stormy, scary, and whatever else nightmares are supposed to be made of...

anyways, here i am today...not so much on auto-pilot anymore except when i'm driving...